[Trying]

I haven't posted here for a while. You used me as an example in your book!

I'm worse than I've ever been but perhaps people who can't overcome there difficulties are interesting as well as the ones who do. I can't overcome social phobia and I don't believe anyone can help me, but most importantly I can't help myself (but how I have tried). I'm sure there is not a person on the planet as quiet, shy, reserved, and so completely bursting with murderous rage as me. It's a good thing I hurt myself otherwise I would maybe have hurt others. The only reason I don't end it all is because I'm that little bit more terrified of death than I am of life. I don't think a tv programme would like me because I wouldn't be a happy ending.

[Trying]

Ok, my apologies for that. Actually, the truth is things are an awful lot better, but I still get depressed sometimes, and in such moments lose sight of the fact I am actually doing much better than before. Last night for some reason I was dreadfully depressed and suppose I was just looking for some way to vent within the safety of an online forum, because I didn't have anyone to talk to.

The ball is definitely rolling, but of course feeling bad just feels bad and I sometimes forget that that is all it is!

Many thanks Benjamin for setting me out on that journey a few years ago.

[Benjamin Fry]

There will always be steps forward and steps back. I'm glad to hear that on balance you are progressing. Best of luck.