Bulimia has come back and I miss mum dreadfully. Am FAT. Weight is STUCK at a BIG number.
Now I cant stop counting mundane things like chimney pots and phone wires, ariel antenna, paving slabs and picking the skin off the heel of my foot (its now split and weepy, as have been doing it to the same bit of heal for ages, its now up the side of my foot, and is noticeable as summer) and pulling out my eyebrows . I am so stupid and cross with myself! If I am sick (self induced) then the urge to pick stops. My face is already scarred and my legs from picking when a kid. I am on 60 mg pd prozac (for b & depression since mum DIED of a brain tumour 15 mths ago, i helped dad nurse her, but never told her i knew she was dying ), my brother now has cancer
I also think I am going to trip and fall and drop the baby, i see it happening in my mind, each time i carry her down the stairs...... feel quite scared, actually.
Also since having baby have had one bleed after she was born, and no periods since, I am DEFFO not pregnant, and am really tired. and my boobs are still leaking milk despite not breast feeding. I wish I could slice them off and my stomach and hips.
Am I cracking up? *Confused and feeling alone!* Can you get PND if already on prozac. or is my brain turning to mush.
