k this isnt the 1st time ive ever posted something,so yeah........ whatever.... i think i want to kill myslef...... got my letters written, ready to go... but something keeps holding me back... i dont know what it is.... i mean im ther, and im ready to do it, but then i think of this person, and how by doing this, she wins..... i dont want that, but i dont know what else to do to deal with this.........
hELP
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Posted 07 January 2005 - 01:38 AM
[SIZE=7]Hello Meg,
Hold on there, I think you urgently need to communicate with someone.
Do you belong to any chat clubs you could contact to talk to someone?
I have MSN Messenger. Or any friend you could e-mail, text or phone??
Love,
Sky
Hold on there, I think you urgently need to communicate with someone.
Do you belong to any chat clubs you could contact to talk to someone?
I have MSN Messenger. Or any friend you could e-mail, text or phone??
Love,
Sky
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Posted 07 January 2005 - 02:57 AM
Meg, how old are you? Would you like to call 911, or any other emergency service wherever you are located? They would come get you, take care of you, and give you the support you desperately need at this moment in your life. Please call.
We are helpless...and can only worry about you. Write back immediately.
Whoever "she" is, she isn't worth this self-destructive action. No one is worth that.
She must have hurt you terribly and we are so sorry.
We are helpless...and can only worry about you. Write back immediately.
Whoever "she" is, she isn't worth this self-destructive action. No one is worth that.
She must have hurt you terribly and we are so sorry.
#4 Guest_Guest_*
Posted 07 January 2005 - 03:01 AM
"Finding Your Emotional Wellspring"
by Mark Myhre
"Ever wonder where your emotional energy comes
from?
You already know where your physical energy comes
from. It's from the air you breathe and the food
you eat. All neatly converted in the mitochondria
of the cells into ATP - the ‘currency of the body'.
What about your emotional body? Where does
the energy come from that fuels *that* body?
What gives you the juice to feel the anger, fear,
etc. ?
Where does the energy come from that lets you
feel angry?
Have you noticed? You never run out of anger.
You always have enough pity. You can always
conjure fear. You can always rise to the emotional
occasion.
It has to come from somewhere.
You have a wellspring inside you just as real, just
as essential as the food you eat.
Deep down inside, deep down in the solar plexus
area, an energy is flowing right now. It's the food
for your emotional body. You can tap into this food
source and make it work for you.
In fact, you've already exploited this food source
quite well. You've dug canals. You've built dams
and dykes. You've engineered; you've worked hard
to mold it into your liking.
You've contained your emotional energy in many
innovative and interesting ways.
Problem is, sometimes it gets a little out of hand.
Sometimes it fights back from your attempts to control
it, to contain it, to shut it up and shut it down.
Sometimes it shouts at you. Many times it whispers.
When the flow stops, stagnation sets in. Just like
water. Your emotional body can end up a swamp,
or an arid desert. Or anything in between. It can
be blazing hot. It can be ice cold.
It can be a beautiful virgin world of dominion - in
peace and harmony - or it can get pretty ugly.
How do you suppose your emotional landscape
stacks up? Where do you fall on the continuum?
Early in life we made choices and decisions about
how we're gonna react to things. Sometimes we
decide to be a victim - and we start digging our
ditches in that direction. We create the emotional
landscape of a victim.
Or maybe we decide anger is the way to go. Our
anger will protect us from the big bad world. So we
blaze a trail in *that* direction.
The point to understand is that we've been busy
little beavers. Unknowingly instructing our
subconscious mind to construct elaborate controls
over that pure clean refreshing flow of virgin
emotional energy that bubbles up from a wellspring
deep inside us.
The emotions you felt yesterday are most likely
the emotions you'll feel tomorrow. Why? Cause
that flow takes the path of least resistance.
Like water. Changing the flow of water can be a
mammoth task. Likewise, changing your emotional
response - your knee-jerk reactions - can be quite
a daunting task as well..."
by Mark Myhre
"Ever wonder where your emotional energy comes
from?
You already know where your physical energy comes
from. It's from the air you breathe and the food
you eat. All neatly converted in the mitochondria
of the cells into ATP - the ‘currency of the body'.
What about your emotional body? Where does
the energy come from that fuels *that* body?
What gives you the juice to feel the anger, fear,
etc. ?
Where does the energy come from that lets you
feel angry?
Have you noticed? You never run out of anger.
You always have enough pity. You can always
conjure fear. You can always rise to the emotional
occasion.
It has to come from somewhere.
You have a wellspring inside you just as real, just
as essential as the food you eat.
Deep down inside, deep down in the solar plexus
area, an energy is flowing right now. It's the food
for your emotional body. You can tap into this food
source and make it work for you.
In fact, you've already exploited this food source
quite well. You've dug canals. You've built dams
and dykes. You've engineered; you've worked hard
to mold it into your liking.
You've contained your emotional energy in many
innovative and interesting ways.
Problem is, sometimes it gets a little out of hand.
Sometimes it fights back from your attempts to control
it, to contain it, to shut it up and shut it down.
Sometimes it shouts at you. Many times it whispers.
When the flow stops, stagnation sets in. Just like
water. Your emotional body can end up a swamp,
or an arid desert. Or anything in between. It can
be blazing hot. It can be ice cold.
It can be a beautiful virgin world of dominion - in
peace and harmony - or it can get pretty ugly.
How do you suppose your emotional landscape
stacks up? Where do you fall on the continuum?
Early in life we made choices and decisions about
how we're gonna react to things. Sometimes we
decide to be a victim - and we start digging our
ditches in that direction. We create the emotional
landscape of a victim.
Or maybe we decide anger is the way to go. Our
anger will protect us from the big bad world. So we
blaze a trail in *that* direction.
The point to understand is that we've been busy
little beavers. Unknowingly instructing our
subconscious mind to construct elaborate controls
over that pure clean refreshing flow of virgin
emotional energy that bubbles up from a wellspring
deep inside us.
The emotions you felt yesterday are most likely
the emotions you'll feel tomorrow. Why? Cause
that flow takes the path of least resistance.
Like water. Changing the flow of water can be a
mammoth task. Likewise, changing your emotional
response - your knee-jerk reactions - can be quite
a daunting task as well..."
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Sherri
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Posted 07 January 2005 - 11:48 AM
I thought of dying once when I was younger. Because I felt so hopeless. Seems there is nothing but suffering ahead of me. And someone said to me:
"If you don't mind dying, why do you mind anything else in the world?!"
So here I am asking you:
If you don't mind dying, why do you mind "...approach my parents about it because then they feel like its something they did wrong.... Then I feel llike Ive let them down, ..." ?? !!!!!!!
Do you know that, there is a way out of all this, but it DOES take a bit more time?
"If you don't mind dying, why do you mind anything else in the world?!"
So here I am asking you:
If you don't mind dying, why do you mind "...approach my parents about it because then they feel like its something they did wrong.... Then I feel llike Ive let them down, ..." ?? !!!!!!!
Do you know that, there is a way out of all this, but it DOES take a bit more time?
#6 Guest_Meg_*
Posted 09 January 2005 - 12:55 AM
Yeah like what? sitting down in some sterile office talking about my feelings? please.... what a crock
#7 Guest_Guest_*
Posted 09 January 2005 - 05:00 AM
Meg,
We're glad you're still with us. Glad you put off any serious actions. Glad you wrote back. Glad you showed your anger...
Emergency services will not talk about your feelings; they will attend to your immediate needs, such as comfort, food, and a place to be safe.
When you are ready to talk, there will be someone there who will listen, that's all.
How do you feel about that crock? Is it something that you would feel comfortable about doing? (Not talking, but being in a safe, comfortable (non-judgemental)place for awhile) Let me know.
We're glad you're still with us. Glad you put off any serious actions. Glad you wrote back. Glad you showed your anger...
Emergency services will not talk about your feelings; they will attend to your immediate needs, such as comfort, food, and a place to be safe.
When you are ready to talk, there will be someone there who will listen, that's all.
How do you feel about that crock? Is it something that you would feel comfortable about doing? (Not talking, but being in a safe, comfortable (non-judgemental)place for awhile) Let me know.
#8 Guest_Meg_*
Posted 09 January 2005 - 05:38 PM
I just want it all to stop....... i dont want to go anywhere,,, i just want to feel better
#9 Guest_Guest_*
Posted 09 January 2005 - 07:02 PM
Meg,
Thanks for your answer. So if you don't want to go anywhere, and you are absolutely miserable at home...do you have a good friend you could stay with awhile? (That's actually going somewhere, but it's not like being with strangers.)
Let me know if this is possible.
Thanks for your answer. So if you don't want to go anywhere, and you are absolutely miserable at home...do you have a good friend you could stay with awhile? (That's actually going somewhere, but it's not like being with strangers.)
Let me know if this is possible.
#10 Guest_Meg_*
Posted 09 January 2005 - 07:56 PM
Nope... yet another thing i managed to fuck up..... none of my "friends" will even look at me anymore...... I literally have nowhere to go.......
#11 Guest_Guest_*
Posted 09 January 2005 - 09:04 PM
Meg, thanks for replying. Have you been this down before? Did any of your friends help you? How about one of their parents? Really, there are many options for you...but I know you don't see that right now. If you've posted before, then you know we don't give up...even though we all have in the past.
I can only speak for myself...but I'll keep replying if you will.
If you are still in school, are you going to school on Monday? Find a teacher to just spend some time with...or find a counselor who will let you just sit and relax for a bit. You have so much on your mind right now, that having time to relax and list what is wrong might be a start. I know, I know, there are too many to list, but just start with one or two for now.
I can only speak for myself...but I'll keep replying if you will.
If you are still in school, are you going to school on Monday? Find a teacher to just spend some time with...or find a counselor who will let you just sit and relax for a bit. You have so much on your mind right now, that having time to relax and list what is wrong might be a start. I know, I know, there are too many to list, but just start with one or two for now.
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Posted 09 January 2005 - 10:04 PM
Meg,
Suicide is the final remedy for those of us whose pain exceeds our capacity to cope. It is a drastic choice that reflects the drastic need for an urgent and significant change in the balance of our pain versus our capacity to cope.
No one can quickly change your pain for you but many organisations and individuals can quickly increase your capacity to cope. For me when I felt suicidal, actually sitting down in an office talking about my feelings was what made the difference. For you it could be something else.
If you wish to avoid suicide you will need to ask for some guidance to help you to find an appropriate way to increase your capacity to cope. I can recommend www.samaritans.org.uk. You can get help there by e-mail which might be useful for you.
I am sorry that you are suffering. I wish you the best of outcomes whatever your choices may be.
Suicide is the final remedy for those of us whose pain exceeds our capacity to cope. It is a drastic choice that reflects the drastic need for an urgent and significant change in the balance of our pain versus our capacity to cope.
No one can quickly change your pain for you but many organisations and individuals can quickly increase your capacity to cope. For me when I felt suicidal, actually sitting down in an office talking about my feelings was what made the difference. For you it could be something else.
If you wish to avoid suicide you will need to ask for some guidance to help you to find an appropriate way to increase your capacity to cope. I can recommend www.samaritans.org.uk. You can get help there by e-mail which might be useful for you.
I am sorry that you are suffering. I wish you the best of outcomes whatever your choices may be.
visit benjaminfry.co.uk for more information on my work
support getstable.org for better mental health treatment in the UK
support getstable.org for better mental health treatment in the UK
#14 Guest_Meg_*
Posted 20 January 2005 - 11:15 PM
I guess im ok... i mean its still no picnic, but uh i havent tried anythign in a while......
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Posted 21 January 2005 - 04:36 PM
Dear Meg,
It is good that you havenít tried anything in a while, but it is not good enough. We want you to get further away from that edge. You can start with talking to us on a regular basis. We are here, checking you (your topic) out everyday. But we can only talk to you if you talk to us.
If you like, you can start a topic in ìAsk Benjamin Fryî forum, and we will be there with you as well. Talk about anything that comes in your mind. Do it slowly, so you wonít be overwhelmed. Life will still be difficult for sometime. It takes time to get better, and we will help you to manage it better. You will see.
Keep talking to us. In time, you will be surprised to see the difference. Be brave. I know it is not easy. For some of us who are much older, we still feel like to run away from life sometimes. Part of the reason is we start to take care of our problem late. You are so young; it means you start earlier than us. Donít you see that is an advantage on your side?
Please stay with us.
Sherri
It is good that you havenít tried anything in a while, but it is not good enough. We want you to get further away from that edge. You can start with talking to us on a regular basis. We are here, checking you (your topic) out everyday. But we can only talk to you if you talk to us.
If you like, you can start a topic in ìAsk Benjamin Fryî forum, and we will be there with you as well. Talk about anything that comes in your mind. Do it slowly, so you wonít be overwhelmed. Life will still be difficult for sometime. It takes time to get better, and we will help you to manage it better. You will see.
Keep talking to us. In time, you will be surprised to see the difference. Be brave. I know it is not easy. For some of us who are much older, we still feel like to run away from life sometimes. Part of the reason is we start to take care of our problem late. You are so young; it means you start earlier than us. Donít you see that is an advantage on your side?
Please stay with us.
Sherri
