Benjamin Fry | Forum: Shyness 2 me - Benjamin Fry | Forum

I suffer from crippling shyness, and am really starting to think that there isn't anything in the world that can help. I go home and throw things at the walls because it is the only form of expression I can ever indulge in. After spending every minute of every single day being polite, quiet, reserved and generally invisible, I feel like I want to explode. You feel like you want to exclaim to the world "I'm a fucking human being, you know, just TALK to me, please." Of course, many friendly people will try and talk to me but they don't get much back in return. They get an edited, censored, inhibited version of me. So I am a living lie really. I don't blame people for not really knowing what to make of me because I don't give them much to go on. I guess they still have to form an opinion though, even though I won't have even opened my mouth. So what use is that? I don't think shyness is a personality type. It's not a personality at all. You are not a person when you're like this. If I was crippled people would maybe recognise it and accept it. But I'm shy, so people just tell you to try and not be. It really is one of the worst. Even shy people don't know what to say to each other! So you never find your own crowd, even among fellow sufferers!

It has got to the point where suicide is really an appealing idea. I'm not stressed, depressed or anything - just fed up. Let's be realistic, cures don't work. You are what you are. Fine. But I don't like what I am. Who in Gods name would like to be stuck in a straight jacket while you watch the rest of the world be alive? In countries where people are dying from war, no food and water - villages destroyed, murder, rape, disease - I look at these people and still see people communicating and bonding, if not even more so because of their difficult circumstances. They seem more alive than me. If someone could give them what they need they'd be OK, but I don't know what I need. I don't think it exists.

Dear freind; I was very shy when i was growing up also.I felt alone and felt like everybody is better than me. See if you can find out how you feel about yourself ? for me because i was the darkest skined child in my family,family freinds and other so called freinds of our family always kept saying how dark complectioned i was and how come the rest of the family kids are cute and i was not !!!! These things kept me shy and i closed up to the world.But the thruth is we are all special in our unique ways and there are good loving people out in the world that do care about others and are not selfish and mean spirited.Imagin saying these things that people told a child like me ???!!!! I started loving animals and caring for these loving creatures and they thaught me how not to be afraid of some horrible people in this world,how to give love without expectin anything in return,and how to share my uniqueness and not be timid. If no one talks to me for the rest of my love ,i could care less,i always have the animals to talk to and to love and care about so , i am never alone.I feel good and happy and can't wait to go home to them and to their unconditional love.We are not the only ones in the planet God has created animals to rescue us ,while the animals are the most ignored beeings on earth,and most abused.Not many people hear their crys for help nor feel their hurt.They are killing them on an hourely basis in the name of Humane Societies,animal shelters ,civilization and growth.Once you start loving them and caring for them you will find out not talking to so called human beeings is not a big deal.But beleive it or not you will not be afraid to talk to people any more,as a matter of fact you will find people like yoursef that are caring and loving.Try it !!!! it works.I was saved by animals and now i'm giving back to them and to the world. May you always be blessed and remember you are not alone !!!!!!!!